- Jun 30, 2010
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Maybe someone can help me make what is probably the hardest decision I could ever have to make...
What if I could cheer at California Allstars next season? (On Code 3... I love this team, I wish everyone understood how much!)
Now, what if that meant leaving my hypoglycemic mother alone to take care of my 10 year old brother by herself?
It would just be her and my brother bc I'd be living with grandma and my dad is deploying soon. But my mom has hypoglycemia really bad. Her blood sugar used to drop to the 20's! But now she has a monitor and it alerts her when her blood sugar goes under 60 so she can take care of it before it gets so low. It shouldn't ever drop that low again. But, technology is technology and also has flaws as well as advantages. I can't help but worry, If I do leave, what if something bad happens to her while I am gone? And I wasn't there to help her because I left her alone to live in Cali for my own selfish reasons. I could never live that down and I would blame myself for as long as I live. But what if I stay and nothing happens and I end up regretting that year that passes by? That opportunity of a lifetime that I would never get back.
I will be a senior next year and it will be my final year of cheerleading. I want to make the best of it. I want to live my dream. I love Cali Code 3 soooo much and to cheer there would complete my life.
But I don't know what to do.
I know I sound like such a selfish person for even thinking of leaving my mother like this, but I HAVE to give it some thought. I have cried a lot of tears over this and it's all I can think about. My mommy has given me everything and she is THE most important person in my life and I would never intentionally hurt her. I want to live my dream and I want to take care of my mom, but I can't do both at the same time. Cali would only be for a year then I'd go back to her. But isn't it wrong to just leave her like that? By herself with my brother and her health problems and my father being gone? I know it sounds selfish and aweful to even be giving this some thought. I know I should put my mom first because she's ALWAYS put me first... but this is such an amazing oppurtunity. Please don't get this wrong, I am NOT saying cheerleading is more important thhan my mom! My mom is my world. I appreciate everything she's ever given me or done for me, even though I'm a total brat sometimes and I don't tell her that as much as I should.
And there's no talking her into moving with me.
What would you do?
I would really appreciate the point of view from a parent.
What if I could cheer at California Allstars next season? (On Code 3... I love this team, I wish everyone understood how much!)
Now, what if that meant leaving my hypoglycemic mother alone to take care of my 10 year old brother by herself?
It would just be her and my brother bc I'd be living with grandma and my dad is deploying soon. But my mom has hypoglycemia really bad. Her blood sugar used to drop to the 20's! But now she has a monitor and it alerts her when her blood sugar goes under 60 so she can take care of it before it gets so low. It shouldn't ever drop that low again. But, technology is technology and also has flaws as well as advantages. I can't help but worry, If I do leave, what if something bad happens to her while I am gone? And I wasn't there to help her because I left her alone to live in Cali for my own selfish reasons. I could never live that down and I would blame myself for as long as I live. But what if I stay and nothing happens and I end up regretting that year that passes by? That opportunity of a lifetime that I would never get back.
I will be a senior next year and it will be my final year of cheerleading. I want to make the best of it. I want to live my dream. I love Cali Code 3 soooo much and to cheer there would complete my life.
But I don't know what to do.
I know I sound like such a selfish person for even thinking of leaving my mother like this, but I HAVE to give it some thought. I have cried a lot of tears over this and it's all I can think about. My mommy has given me everything and she is THE most important person in my life and I would never intentionally hurt her. I want to live my dream and I want to take care of my mom, but I can't do both at the same time. Cali would only be for a year then I'd go back to her. But isn't it wrong to just leave her like that? By herself with my brother and her health problems and my father being gone? I know it sounds selfish and aweful to even be giving this some thought. I know I should put my mom first because she's ALWAYS put me first... but this is such an amazing oppurtunity. Please don't get this wrong, I am NOT saying cheerleading is more important thhan my mom! My mom is my world. I appreciate everything she's ever given me or done for me, even though I'm a total brat sometimes and I don't tell her that as much as I should.
And there's no talking her into moving with me.
What would you do?
I would really appreciate the point of view from a parent.