I'm having a quarter life crisis and I need help.
So this whole raised rent business is stressing me the heck out. We haven't found any apartment we can move to yet :/.
About six months ago, I went and saw a recruiter for the Air Force. They told me I had to wait six months before we could proceed with anything. I just got a call from my recruiter saying that they're ready for me. I haven't signed anything, so it's up to me completely.
Here's the thing though, Rob and I are much more settled into our relationship now. He also has his kid that lives with his mom and comes to us on weekends so he can't leave the area. So if I do this Air Force thing, it would pretty much be the end for us and it's stressing me the heck out. The closest base to my town is still over an hour, and he's said that he's completely unwilling to leave the area.
Even if I didn't do the Military route, what if I get all the way through nursing school and can't find a job in the area..? He still wouldn't be able to leave and I'd be in the same situation.
A big part of me is all for going because of everything it would do for me. The military has so many benefits that can't even list them. I'm still 19, I shouldn't have the stressors that I do right now, like picking his kid up from school on time and going over his report card with his teacher because his mom didn't. I don't want to limit myself for the rest of my life, especially if our relationship ends up crashing and burning 5-10 years down the line.
Another part of me is worried that I'm just panicking because things are pretty unstable now. I would hate to end my frickin engagement because things got a little rocky and I freaked out. I love him a lot, and we have a great relationship. A week ago, I was saying that I didn't want to leave for the military anymore, so I would hate to take this huge step and regret it forever.
I just don't know what to do.